I’ve reached the end of week 4… And I still feel pretty good!
I lost 1lbs on Monday, Which I know isn’t a great deal but a loss is a loss and I’m celebrating that little victory. I had a terrible week food wise so I’m VERY happy.
Just 5 more days til I step on the big shouty machine and I am so worried that it’s going to tell me I’ve lost all of 2lbs these past 5 weeks. Although I’ve had a very good week this week. a very nice lunch at Wetherspoons on Thursday and a great late lunch at Nandos on Saturday (after watching Deadpool which was AMAZING… seriously, go see it!) I have come to the realisation that I need to build my confidence back up… I maybe fat but I’m working on fixing that. There’s no real reason for me to be ashamed, although I think my problem is I feel bad for the people I’m with, like I wish I looked better for them…? Does that even make sense? I don’t want people I’m with to be ashamed to be seen with me… That’s basically what I’m saying.
It’s the first time in my journey to lose weight that I’ve realised I don’t just want to be fitter, I want to be prettier. I want to feel beautiful and have someone look at me the way I look at Chris Pratt or Chocolate Fudge cake (lol!) but again in all seriousness, I want someone who likes me how I am now and can see the potential in me (which I hope to God I have) and they’ll support me in my change and not sit there and eat all the junk food they could possibly get their hands on or tell me I’m on holiday and it doesn’t matter what I eat, cause when I fall, I crash and sometimes I end up at square 1 and others I get worse.
So that was some deep stuff there… so moving on…
Weigh in tomorrow hoping on a 3lbs loss and then I shall update on Friday with the results of the big shouty machine.
Wish me luck… I’m going to need it!