I had a bad week…

Okay so I weighed in on Sunday…

+2Lbs

okay so it was a bad week BUT it’s only terrible if i let it get to me…
so I haven’t.

I’ve decided to leave my weeklies, concentrate on dailies (within 3 points below) and then if I really NEED my weeklies I shall have them in abundance… 
for example if i have a craving… better if I can settle that than to deprive myself… or if the guys from work invite me out for a meal, I’m safe. 

okay so the competition between my sister and I… I won the first round. 
It’s every fortnight so last weeks weigh in set a benchmark for this week’s…
My sister LOST 7.5LBS!!! and I put on 2! so in order to win the weigh this week, I have to lose 10lbs… PLUS 1lbs more than my sister does *gulp*

14lbs is a brave target – i’m aiming high but not going to dwell if i don’t make it.

🙂 

Weigh in Day…

So today was the first weigh in day since Christmas

On Christmas Day I weighed 311 Lbs

Today I weigh 307.5Lbs

I have lost 3.5lbs!!!!!!

Super happy with this as a result! 3.5lbs puts me on target for my Beginning of March Challenge…
At the start of March I am going to see my friend (the one I have mentioned on here like all the time, my personal weight loss motivator… :p ) we are going to have a day of Brownies and movies… cause why not? 🙂 but If I do not lose more than 20lbs (so 21lbs or more) which is a goal of 290 by then… I’m not allowed Brownies 😦 lol.
BUT my friend has set me another challenge to lose 5 more lbs… making a goal of:

285!!!!

I don’t know what the small incentive to brownies is going to be yet… but I do love a challenge!!!

And the weight loss challenge with my sister… I won the first weigh in 🙂

This week is a success…

Let’s keep this up!

Welcome 2017!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 

Here we are a new year, ready for a new start.

2016 ended in a much better way than any previous year I had been on a diet… so I ended 2016 21lbs lighter than I started it. This for me is a win as I usually start the next year having put on weight.

Now the end of the year didn’t go as planned but now here I am ready to absolutely kick ass!!

I’m back at the gym, I’m smashing my 11,000 steps a day goal.
I have realised my days off I just want to sit around doing nothing, this will have to change… so lots of getting off my bum on days off…

2017 is what I can make of it…

Food
Exercise
Enviroment

FATTY to fitty is still here…

Here I am… the week before Christmas and I’m back! New job has started. I’m on my 5th week and currently LOVING it…

the downside? The food… Biscuits, Muffins, Cakes… so much yumminess and too weak to resist!!! Okay so let’s bring everyone back up to speed here…

I have but on weight. I’ve gone back up to 307.5lbs as of last Sunday. I have entered a weight loss competition with my Sister… for the time being we are going over the next 8 weeks and the winner will get £10 from each person (£20 to go in a savings tin) then after that we are going to WW Meetings… (actual meetings, with people and everything… *Gulp*) then the winner of each fortnight gets £10 from each, again to go into a pot… after 6 months we’re opening tins and going shopping! (hopefully for new clothes cause well skinny(er)

That’s about all I can add for today… I will update on or around Next Sunday with the next weigh in installment…

This time I’m back for good…
(I’m sure my friend will keep me in check to update from now on lol)

I’m getting there Slowly…

Slowly but surely I am getting there, I have lost 5lbs since coming out of hospital, it isn’t a lot but it’s coming down and that’s the main thing.

Being out of work is causing me far more stress and has made me far more depressed that I thought it would. I’ve cancelled my gym membership as I can no longer afford it but I have been trying to get out and run and as it gets colder the want and need to stay inside in the warm is ever increasing. but I keep trying, and the craving for chocolate has started to dwindle, Diet back on track, Exercise back on track and I’ll get there.

I’m not giving up. I refuse to give up. I’ve come too far to give up now.

wouldn’t say no to having someone nag me right now…

BUT I am getting there… Slowly….

It’s Goal Time…

Time to set some goals, I mean it’s not like I have anything better to do while I’m stuck in this hospital Ward for the next 24ish hours….

I have 9 weeks before I start my new job, that’s 9 weeks I can focus on my food and exercise…

I’m going to split it into 3’s (3 goals of 3 weeks) but then an ultimate goal, a minimum weight loss for the 9 week period (which will be based on the 295lbs I weighed at home a couple weeks ago).

Hopefully things will be a little better as my dad has finally had a telling off from the diabetic nurse for his diet and ALL the Ice Cream he eats… after years of nagging him finally he is listening which means more of what I eat in the house, easier to make the same food for 2 than 2 different meals so It’s a great time to look forward.

I have purchased a new Diary from Fox and Moon, The WeightWatchers friendly diaries have had a little facelift. but it’s excellent, a Fresh start and a Fresh Diary to work with. That’s waiting for me for when I get home.

So First Goal…

20th November
Lose 28lbs (2 stone)

3 week Goal…

9th October
Lose 10lbs

It’s time to get out of here and work my arse off!

THERE IS NO GIVING UP THIS TIME!!!

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What the Hell Happened?!?

So It was the 15th July the last time I was here. I said it would be 11 days to my next update After I got back from the homeland, Well It looks like I’m a big fat liar as here I am 65 days later.

Let’s cut to the chase, my week off was AWFUL, completely terrible, It’s a very long complicated story between my best friend and her now ex and her new bf… long story short, at the time of my birthday they had been split a matter of weeks, she was already seeing someone new and her and her ex were still living under the same roof… In order for me to get on with new bf my best friend had him there THE WHOLE time, I got like zero time to spend with her. Her new bf is a massive Douche, so being around him all the time stressed me out, out came the chocolate, crisps, cake and god knows whatever else. just another thing I cannot seem to switch off. But the highlight of the week was going out for dinner with an awesome friend. He even treated me for my birthday which was sweet. We went to a very nice pizza place, it was a Subway for Pizza haha. it was very nice and it was really nice to see him again, just a shame it wasn’t for long. That night I met up with some friends, went to a club and drank stupid amounts. Went out for a posh lunch the next day and by the time I got home I was scared to step on scales, I was scared to do anything and that included coming on here. I felt like I had failed myself AGAIN!!

What does any sane person do when they feel like a failure? yes, they hide. so that is what I did. Up until a couple weeks ago….

I decided I had had enough of hiding and avoiding what I was doing to myself, I stepped on the scales, I had put on 10lbs, that put me up to 295lbs. I wanted to cry and hide but then I had to remind myself, It could have been far far worse, I could be back to the 329lbs where I had started but I wasn’t. it was 10lbs and that is easy to control. I picked up my running shoes and headed down the beach, 3 times a week and got my lap down from 55min to 45min. I’m proud of that. the food side of things still need some work but I haven’t weighed myself since…

I am currently facing a massive hiccup which my help me food wise in the long run but I ended up being taken into hospital on the 5th September, Apparently I had a seizure, I say apparently because Mentally I wasn’t there… I woke up on the floor of a cafe then in an Ambulance and then again at the hospital. I lost my ability to form words which has been pretty scary at times but I’m getting there, speech is almost back to normal and I get to go home on Tuesday after 2 weeks. This set back has caused an issue for work, I was due to start at my new job on the 12th September but they have deferred it til November as I was ill. It was nice that they deferred but I am now income-less for 2 months… no gym! but on the upside I can now focus on myself, get my health back on track without having to worry about fitting it all around work for the time being.

So I think that pretty much covers it…

No more Hiding!!!