I had a Birthday….

Hey Guys.

So it has been a while but here I am!

So lets start off with the bad news – I PUT ON WEIGHT! I went up to 24st 7 (343lbs) *GULP*
How I hear you ask?

Well frankly I got old….

On the 11th of July I went to see some family. I went to London for the weekend with my cousinย and did lots of fun things! It started on the Friday, we went to my uncles to stay for the weekend, we had lunch in Harvester and then jumped on the Tube to spend the evening in Hyde Park where we got to enjoy the musical-ness of The Feeling, Bananarama and Micheal Buble. We had a LOVELY shower which really cooled us down haha but we also had pizza (just one to share ;)) on the Saturday we had a nice cooked breakfast at a greasy spoon and it was VERY nice. we left my uncles and headed off on an adventure, we had snacks throughout the day and went on a London open top bus tour which was great fun. We left the tour and had a wander up to see the Queen (she wasn’t home) then a stroll through St James’s Park and off to the Thames and we jumped on a boat and arrived at the O2 to see the Muppets Live! again more food, hotdogs and sandwiches late at night. the Sunday I travelled home, I had bacon rolls, and more sandwiches and chocolate and generally things that are bad…

It didn’t stop there…

Over the next couple days I had friends over so we went up to the Mumbles where we enjoyed seaside treats including Ice Cream (dairy free for me)
It’s not exactly improved from there either, I had 2 slices of Chocolate Cake on my birthday and a big Calvary meal a week later. I feel like I’ve done nothing but eat, sleep and go to work since!

So I haven’t weighed in since I got back when I found out I stormed passed 24st! so… tomorrow is a weigh in day.

One of my best friends has joined me on my WW Journey and honestly, she is smashing it and really inspiring me to pull on my big girl pants and move forward…

I have a few points to play with daily…
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So I am cooking from scratch with a couple WW ready meals in the freezer for back up.

I will be posting over the next couple days a food special, some ideas and recipes with different values and some ideas for a quick bite.

Til then….

We’re All Battling Demons… My Demon is Cake…

Here we are long time no see…

I’ve been very up and down of the last few months, attempting to diet but there’s always something.

We all have reasons as to why we’re FAT Mine is I LIKE FOOD. It is literally that simple! The biggest problem with being such a fan of food is that when life starts getting me down, food is my comfort… Junk Food is the be all and end all when all I want to do is lay in bed and hide away from the world and whatever drama I have this time around.

So after being so up and down I finally weighed in… all the weight I lost at the start of the year has piled back on and then some… So I’m now weighing at my heaviest and I’m a grand total of 23st and 12lbs! (334lbs)ย 

I see this and it makes me want to cry… and this is what i now need to break through, I am down and depressed enough as it is, I don’t need my weight to jump on that too. Being fat is making me eat and making me fatter and this is the cycle I need to break and fast. I always start off well on diets and then I just get lazy and down and then I stop caring… A few years ago I weighed in at 305Lbs and I told myself then that that was going to be the heaviest i will EVER be… and now here I am 29lbs heavier and If i keep going this way I am just going to kill myself…
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So…

Time to move away from all the stresses in my life and focus on being healthy. This means avoiding the life and drama’s of my friends… this might sound bad but I have enough to deal with and their issues are affecting me and that isn’t fair, that’s making me fat!

I don’t want to be the fat girl, I want to be the fit, happy healthy curvy girl!!

So here we are at the bottom step (Again) ready to work my way back up.

It’s 2018 and here I am still Heartbroken and still FAT.

I am back… it’s been what? 6 months or so?

I have had a VERY hard time getting my life together after losing my dad, Iย feel like I’m having a minor break down everyday.

But, I need to get healthy, my dad wouldn’t want me to spend my life eating my way into an early grave, he would like me to be happy and healthy.
So with that in mind I am dedicated to being the person I know I can be.
I have a target of 100lbs for the year, that’s just under 2lbs in a week.

This should be more than achievable, so far so good…. but we are just 4 weeks in.

wish me luck….

July and Hello Summer

Hello Summer,
At least there is one thing as of late the weather has been beautiful!

Getting back into the habit of going to the gym, as and when I can.

I have stopped my meetings at WW (in an attempt to save some monies) but I am continuing online only. This means my scales have changed back to the ones I had at home and as I put on weight…

I am 317lbs! that is 22st 9lbs…
Slowly going back up to where I started in Feb last year and I really don’t have an excuse for it. Depression and crap and just generally not looking after myself.

I’ve emptied my wardrobe of everything that doesn’t fit me, too big and it’s off to the charity shop, too small and it’s gone into a bag under my bed, out of sight, out of mind. (or so they say) the idea is if the there is next to nothing in my wardrobe and I cannot afford to buy new clothes then I need to look after myself.
And by that I also mean make myself accountable for everything that I do.

I will now be updating this site at least twice a week as I need to keep on top of things which means saying no when the girls at work suggest a McDonald’s Breakfast Wrap in the mornings (omg they taste so good!!!) No more trips to McDonald’s around the corner from house either…

Time to make myself accountable!

Summer didn’t last long….

Hey you lovely blog followers,
For those of you in the UK, you’ll agree the weather this week has been CRAZY! so hot and I was stuck in work for all of it (OMG… TOO HOT) we’re not used to heat like that here but it seems to have come to an end, just about.

I have a few things to update you with,

I haven’t been back to a meeting as I just don’t have the time to go, So i think i’m going to go back to online only WW ( it is cheaper after all)

secondly I’ve organised a night of dinner and drinks with a couple of my best friends from work, I’ve bought a new dress, in a size smaller than I was and it’s a tight fit dress, like on purpose… I doubt I will look as good as the model I saw it on but I’m happy with it ๐Ÿ™‚

lastly… I went shopping the other day and I saw something pretty that I really wanted but don’t do in my size (well that i’m used to) but determination face on..
I bought it in the largest size they do and with an aim to fit in it AND feel confident in it…
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*GULP*

Fingers crossed this plan goes well.

SO far so good…

Will update again soon ๐Ÿ™‚

Hello June…

June is here and we’ve had a revamp of the page.

New month, fresh eyes and planning on sharing more, getting my thoughts etc out there to help with my mental health which hopefully has an effect on my physical health ๐Ÿ™‚

I now have a domain for my blog… welcome to fattofit789.com ๐Ÿ™‚ ย It’s great to have you here.

Now one thing I have added is a countdown.
This is for my milestones, My next one is my 28th Birthday and we are 48 days away.
In that time I am setting myself a goal…

Lose 20lbs!

I know this is a big ask, I can only really base it on my home scales as I still haven’t made it to WeightWatchers meeting yet and the next one will be next Friday *gulp*

So I am hoping worst case to be about 290lbs for my Birthday. (this is 13lbs less than I was at last WW meeting) so I have given myself around a 7lbs buffer. I don’t think I am now 7lbs more than i was in my last meeting but can never be too sure.

feeling much better counting my food again too ๐Ÿ™‚

Bring it on ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

But it was my ‘Day Off’

A day off work does not mean a day off weight loss…

This became very apparent to me this week, just look at my daily step totals from Monday to Saturday….
I worked Monday, Wednesday – Friday; When I work I walk to my local train station, which is slightly longer route at the moment due to road works (yay :/) I then walk from the train station in the town where I work to the building I work in, I spend a lot of my day walking from one side of the office to the other or on occasion climbing the stairs to get to the next floor cause the lift takes to long (wait! picking walking upstairs over getting the lift? am i nuts??) then I do the reverse walk home.


Then Saturday, Which was my day off, I went to Swansea Comic con, Which was a little further out of town than I thought it would be, Then as I walked into town there was an awesome band playing in the square, so I sat and listened to them for a little while, before popping into work, seeing some work friends who were stuck there for the day and then took the trip back home, I cannot believe that when I got home I had walked 17k steps, I was truly amazed.

So I have decided on my days off I need to get up off my bum and do more, doing more can be fun ๐Ÿ™‚

Also In 2 weeks I lost a total of 10lbs, It slowed down in the second week but I’m still pretty chuffed with that, I just cannot wait to find out what that means in terms of the scales in WW meeting but we shall soon see.

I’ve taken the decision also to move off No Count and to go back onto counting, The reason for this is because I am quite fussy with food and the things I like on the no count which are ideal for me to take to work ends up being the same thing everyday and I like variety, so I think I would rather count and mix it up a bit, don’t want to be living off chicken and couscous forever (even if it does taste lush)

I think that sums up the update, but overall I’m pretty happy with how things are going, just got to remember slow and steady wins the race.