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It’s a Picture Special! oh dear…

Okay, so when I was looking through all my pics the other day on here and the huge difference in my size has been a real shock…

I mean when I first started this journey cause I was really overweight and now it’s worse…

Lets have a stroll down memory lane..

This was the first picture I shared… first of all PLEASE do not look at that haircut! (cringe) So the left is 5.5 years ago and the right is just over 6 years…picFrame (3)
There isn’t much between the 2 and I still have the dress on the left (it’s a size 22) that’s 2 dress sizes I have gone up in the last 5.5 years…

Next up:

This time we have the picture that gave me a kick back up the backside to try and do something about my weight, it was me as Harley at Comic Con in Birmingham 2015, The picture on the right (in my stunning QPR shirt which is now WAY too tight on me) was taken the following July, this was after I moved to Wales.
MyCollageI know I did lose weight in this time, it wasn’t much but you could see it. After then I started a new job, my life crumbled apart and I’m sad to say I lost my way a few times and eventually this is where I am now…

This is me… MAY 2019

 

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What an absolute mess! I thought it was bad before… It really wasn’t…
what i would do now to be a size 22… a size 20…

I just need to keep at it this time…. Wish me luck!

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New Diet, New Attempt

So, They changed WeightWatchers so much… now WW that I really really struggled with it, the new points meant that as someone with a dairy intolerance I was really stuck with choice. I was constantly over my points and I piled the weight back on.

As you can imagine it has been really hard, I cancelled my membership and decided to give it up and go it alone, so here I now am 2 stone heavier thinking WTF have I done?

So I have signed up to Slimming World, going to give it a few months and see how I get on. There is a lot more choice and so far it seems to be working for me.

#WeighinWednesday we will find out just how much it does work!

Hope you are all having a fab week and here we go again…

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Things don’t always turn out as expected…

Bonjourno and a VERY happy Heatwave to you…

So here we are 3 weeks since I decided to get back on plan.
I have lost 4lbs which doesn’t seem like a lot I know but for me it’s huge.
I lost 2lbs in week 1, 2lbs in week 2 and maintained in week 3.

Normally at this stage a maintain would crush me, but a maintain is better than a gain and it’s very much a case of looking at the positives.

So..

I am now 23st 8lbs and It’s coming down, slowly but I’m on my way…

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We’re All Battling Demons… My Demon is Cake…

Here we are long time no see…

I’ve been very up and down of the last few months, attempting to diet but there’s always something.

We all have reasons as to why we’re FAT Mine is I LIKE FOOD. It is literally that simple! The biggest problem with being such a fan of food is that when life starts getting me down, food is my comfort… Junk Food is the be all and end all when all I want to do is lay in bed and hide away from the world and whatever drama I have this time around.

So after being so up and down I finally weighed in… all the weight I lost at the start of the year has piled back on and then some… So I’m now weighing at my heaviest and I’m a grand total of 23st and 12lbs! (334lbs) 

I see this and it makes me want to cry… and this is what i now need to break through, I am down and depressed enough as it is, I don’t need my weight to jump on that too. Being fat is making me eat and making me fatter and this is the cycle I need to break and fast. I always start off well on diets and then I just get lazy and down and then I stop caring… A few years ago I weighed in at 305Lbs and I told myself then that that was going to be the heaviest i will EVER be… and now here I am 29lbs heavier and If i keep going this way I am just going to kill myself…
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So…

Time to move away from all the stresses in my life and focus on being healthy. This means avoiding the life and drama’s of my friends… this might sound bad but I have enough to deal with and their issues are affecting me and that isn’t fair, that’s making me fat!

I don’t want to be the fat girl, I want to be the fit, happy healthy curvy girl!!

So here we are at the bottom step (Again) ready to work my way back up.

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It’s 2018 and here I am still Heartbroken and still FAT.

I am back… it’s been what? 6 months or so?

I have had a VERY hard time getting my life together after losing my dad, I feel like I’m having a minor break down everyday.

But, I need to get healthy, my dad wouldn’t want me to spend my life eating my way into an early grave, he would like me to be happy and healthy.
So with that in mind I am dedicated to being the person I know I can be.
I have a target of 100lbs for the year, that’s just under 2lbs in a week.

This should be more than achievable, so far so good…. but we are just 4 weeks in.

wish me luck….

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Health and Wellbeing… What Happened??

This post is a hard one to write.

I have been in such an awful place since September. Having a seizure and ending up in hospital and temporarily losing my ability to speak has really affected me.

I have suffered with depression for some time, About 14 years or so. But these last 6 months have been awful. I hate who I am and what happens to me, The more stressed or upset I get the more my brain seems to shut down on me and it’s the scariest thing I have ever been through. A Neurologist believes I am now suffering with Migraines as a result of the seizure and I’m finally now on Beta Blockers. I had a Blood Test in January, the message I got back said that the test was ‘fine’ but Thursday on my way to work I collapsed. I went dizzy and I was gone. The first time this has happened, I was on my own and I was scared. so No work and off to the Doctor’s. The Doctor informed me my Folic Acid levels are low which he established from the test in January.

The main reason for everything I have been doing this last year is not to be skinny but to be healthy and I feel like my body and my mind is giving up on me. I’m scared and Don’t know what to do. I’m trying to eat right but I’ve taken a step back from the gym as I’m so scared to be there and for something to happen and I get hurt or worse hurt someone else.

Part of me thinks that the Doctor’s aren’t taking me seriously but I can only go by their professional opinions on what is wrong with me. Everything is linked to the seizure and I’ve always been good with words and thoughts and now I’m  not… I’m not me.

All I want to do is cry and no one knows…
How can I tell people that I want to cry because my mind feels broken? There are people going through worse, this could be temporary…. but it might not be.

What can I do??

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Not the week I wanted but a good result…

I lost 4Lbs!!!

not the 14 I was aiming for but I was ill for a couple days, got sent home from work and well dropping out of routine does make things worse. but I lost the 2.5 i put on and then lost a lil more.

Not too shabby 🙂

Total loss of 5Lbs so far… but i start meetings Friday 3rd Feb.

I’ve set a new goal, 10Lbs to lose in 2 weeks – before Sunday 5th Feb. those 10lbs will mean I have lost 10% of weight in 1 whole year.

Which isn’t too bad after the rubbish back and forth I had from July til now.

wish me luck… couple more weeks til a picture comparison… *gulp*

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I had a bad week…

Okay so I weighed in on Sunday…

+2Lbs

okay so it was a bad week BUT it’s only terrible if i let it get to me…
so I haven’t.

I’ve decided to leave my weeklies, concentrate on dailies (within 3 points below) and then if I really NEED my weeklies I shall have them in abundance… 
for example if i have a craving… better if I can settle that than to deprive myself… or if the guys from work invite me out for a meal, I’m safe. 

okay so the competition between my sister and I… I won the first round. 
It’s every fortnight so last weeks weigh in set a benchmark for this week’s…
My sister LOST 7.5LBS!!! and I put on 2! so in order to win the weigh this week, I have to lose 10lbs… PLUS 1lbs more than my sister does *gulp*

14lbs is a brave target – i’m aiming high but not going to dwell if i don’t make it.

🙂 

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I’m getting there Slowly…

Slowly but surely I am getting there, I have lost 5lbs since coming out of hospital, it isn’t a lot but it’s coming down and that’s the main thing.

Being out of work is causing me far more stress and has made me far more depressed that I thought it would. I’ve cancelled my gym membership as I can no longer afford it but I have been trying to get out and run and as it gets colder the want and need to stay inside in the warm is ever increasing. but I keep trying, and the craving for chocolate has started to dwindle, Diet back on track, Exercise back on track and I’ll get there.

I’m not giving up. I refuse to give up. I’ve come too far to give up now.

wouldn’t say no to having someone nag me right now…

BUT I am getting there… Slowly….

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I’m still here….

I just thought I needed to give a keep post update to say I haven’t gone anywhere. This post maybe awful as it’s all via my tablet instead of laptop cause I don’t really have that to hand….

So what’s been going on?

Well I’m still sticking to weighwatchers where I can. I left Leicestershire but the new house in South Wales we can’t move into til Thursday… So I live and work here but all my stuff is in storage (yay?)

So. No weigh in yet. As of the move etc I won’t be weighing in this week either. So Friday next week will be my first official weigh in. My weigh in day will then continue to be a Friday as I’ll have my own scales back so no more big shout machine. So I shall update in 12 days 🙂