Seriously how many times am I going to be ‘BACK’?
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Welcome to 2019! I hope this year treats you all well and gives you all the joy and happiness you deserve and that your goals are reached!
So last year I was very stressed about my weight and anyone who reads this or my Instagram will see that it’s been VERY up and down.
So I am no longer thinking about my long term goal. We are all about the short term.
My new short term Goal date is NYE 2019.
NYE 2018 STARTING WEIGHT IS…
23st and 8 lbs (330lbs)
NYE 2019 TARGET WEIGHT IS…
TOTAL TO TARGET
4st 8lbs (64lbs)
You guys know the drill by now… Blah Blah I’ll be back to updating weekly Blah Blah…
Yeah we all know that I will generally NOT be doing that… but all I can say is I will try.
I have a new Scrapbook to keep my journey alive, the only difference is this is be done monthly so I can see January in one place and then Feb and so on…
So wish me luck I am going to need it…
Losing a lot of weight feels like a miracle. especially when you need to lose the weight of another person (how the hell do I carry the weight of another grown human around with me 24/7?)
So today was Weigh in day! I have had a great week and stayed in the blue dot tracking zone (that is -10 to +5 smart points from your daily allowance)
So after a solid full week on plan, including treats that were 100% tracked and counted I lost…
I cannot believe what happened… I’m in a state of shock, Yes I have worked VERY hard this week and I truely believe that I do deserve this! I’m just hoping that the hard work pays off again this week!!!
Onwards and Downwards 🙂
22st 13 – I’m coming for you… 11lbs to go 🙂
So it has been a while but here I am!
So lets start off with the bad news – I PUT ON WEIGHT! I went up to 24st 7 (343lbs) *GULP*
How I hear you ask?
Well frankly I got old….
On the 11th of July I went to see some family. I went to London for the weekend with my cousin and did lots of fun things! It started on the Friday, we went to my uncles to stay for the weekend, we had lunch in Harvester and then jumped on the Tube to spend the evening in Hyde Park where we got to enjoy the musical-ness of The Feeling, Bananarama and Micheal Buble. We had a LOVELY shower which really cooled us down haha but we also had pizza (just one to share ;)) on the Saturday we had a nice cooked breakfast at a greasy spoon and it was VERY nice. we left my uncles and headed off on an adventure, we had snacks throughout the day and went on a London open top bus tour which was great fun. We left the tour and had a wander up to see the Queen (she wasn’t home) then a stroll through St James’s Park and off to the Thames and we jumped on a boat and arrived at the O2 to see the Muppets Live! again more food, hotdogs and sandwiches late at night. the Sunday I travelled home, I had bacon rolls, and more sandwiches and chocolate and generally things that are bad…
It didn’t stop there…
Over the next couple days I had friends over so we went up to the Mumbles where we enjoyed seaside treats including Ice Cream (dairy free for me)
It’s not exactly improved from there either, I had 2 slices of Chocolate Cake on my birthday and a big Calvary meal a week later. I feel like I’ve done nothing but eat, sleep and go to work since!
So I haven’t weighed in since I got back when I found out I stormed passed 24st! so… tomorrow is a weigh in day.
One of my best friends has joined me on my WW Journey and honestly, she is smashing it and really inspiring me to pull on my big girl pants and move forward…
I have a few points to play with daily…
So I am cooking from scratch with a couple WW ready meals in the freezer for back up.
I will be posting over the next couple days a food special, some ideas and recipes with different values and some ideas for a quick bite.
Bonjourno and a VERY happy Heatwave to you…
So here we are 3 weeks since I decided to get back on plan.
I have lost 4lbs which doesn’t seem like a lot I know but for me it’s huge.
I lost 2lbs in week 1, 2lbs in week 2 and maintained in week 3.
Normally at this stage a maintain would crush me, but a maintain is better than a gain and it’s very much a case of looking at the positives.
I am now 23st 8lbs and It’s coming down, slowly but I’m on my way…
Here we are long time no see…
I’ve been very up and down of the last few months, attempting to diet but there’s always something.
We all have reasons as to why we’re FAT Mine is I LIKE FOOD. It is literally that simple! The biggest problem with being such a fan of food is that when life starts getting me down, food is my comfort… Junk Food is the be all and end all when all I want to do is lay in bed and hide away from the world and whatever drama I have this time around.
So after being so up and down I finally weighed in… all the weight I lost at the start of the year has piled back on and then some… So I’m now weighing at my heaviest and I’m a grand total of 23st and 12lbs! (334lbs)
I see this and it makes me want to cry… and this is what i now need to break through, I am down and depressed enough as it is, I don’t need my weight to jump on that too. Being fat is making me eat and making me fatter and this is the cycle I need to break and fast. I always start off well on diets and then I just get lazy and down and then I stop caring… A few years ago I weighed in at 305Lbs and I told myself then that that was going to be the heaviest i will EVER be… and now here I am 29lbs heavier and If i keep going this way I am just going to kill myself…
Time to move away from all the stresses in my life and focus on being healthy. This means avoiding the life and drama’s of my friends… this might sound bad but I have enough to deal with and their issues are affecting me and that isn’t fair, that’s making me fat!
I don’t want to be the fat girl, I want to be the fit, happy healthy curvy girl!!
So here we are at the bottom step (Again) ready to work my way back up.
I am back… it’s been what? 6 months or so?
I have had a VERY hard time getting my life together after losing my dad, I feel like I’m having a minor break down everyday.
But, I need to get healthy, my dad wouldn’t want me to spend my life eating my way into an early grave, he would like me to be happy and healthy.
So with that in mind I am dedicated to being the person I know I can be.
I have a target of 100lbs for the year, that’s just under 2lbs in a week.
This should be more than achievable, so far so good…. but we are just 4 weeks in.
wish me luck….
This post comes from a very difficult place but I feel like I finally have reached a place when I can talk about it.
I haven’t updated in a while and I know this happens alot and I swear it will never happen again blah blah blah..
but I took my dad to hospital on July 15th, 4 days before my birthday as he had trouble breathing… the events that followed have completely destroyed my heart and soul.
My dad who suffers with Alzheimer’s and diagnosed with Diabetes was having issues breathing and so I made him go to A&E. when we got to our local hospital there was no A&E department but a nursed checked him over and called an ambulance. it was at the Hospital with an A&E department that we found out my dad was having an Hyperglycaemic episode which was triggered by a minor heart attack a couple days before. there was fluid on his lungs from the complications and before they could do anything the fluid had to go. he was kept in hospital for the next few days, my birthday I went to see him, he seemed fine, his normal happy self, he had a little issue when he go caught up in the wires monitoring his heart but he was overall okay, the fluid just about gone he was ready to have someone look at his heart to help make it stronger.
The next day on July 20th my dad was rushed into Theatre after suffering a much larger heart attack and that it when he passed away, his heart would not start again. I got to the hospital with my sister and a nurse sat us down and told us that they did everything that they could but he didn’t make it. It was in that moment that I just felt my whole life crumble and disappear before me.
My dad was one of a kind, he raised 2 girls on his own. I was 11 months old when our mum left and my dad was my whole world, when he was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s he protested he was fine but I couldn’t leave him, I had to make sure he was taking his medication and attending appointments.
Losing my dad is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to experience and we’re nearly a month on and everyday I feel my heart break more and more. I’m still hoping someone will tell me this is all just a bad dream and he’ll be here when I get home from work.
I never realised someone could feel this broken.
I am trying to heal so in this time I don’t know where I’m going fitness wise, I am trying but it’s hard. I’m not making promises to be updating here.
Right now I need my friends and my family.