Miracles Start with Hard Work…

Losing a lot of weight feels like a miracle. especially when you need to lose the weight of another person (how the hell do I carry the weight of another grown human around with me 24/7?)

So today was Weigh in day! I have had a great week and stayed in the blue dot tracking zone (that is -10 to +5 smart points from your daily allowance)

So after a solid full week on plan, including treats that were 100% tracked and counted I lost…

 

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I cannot believe what happened… I’m in a state of shock, Yes I have worked VERY hard this week and I truely believe that I do deserve this! I’m just hoping that the hard work pays off again this week!!!

Onwards and Downwards ๐Ÿ™‚

22st 13 – I’m coming for you… 11lbs to go ๐Ÿ™‚

 

I had a Birthday….

Hey Guys.

So it has been a while but here I am!

So lets start off with the bad news – I PUT ON WEIGHT! I went up to 24st 7 (343lbs) *GULP*
How I hear you ask?

Well frankly I got old….

On the 11th of July I went to see some family. I went to London for the weekend with my cousinย and did lots of fun things! It started on the Friday, we went to my uncles to stay for the weekend, we had lunch in Harvester and then jumped on the Tube to spend the evening in Hyde Park where we got to enjoy the musical-ness of The Feeling, Bananarama and Micheal Buble. We had a LOVELY shower which really cooled us down haha but we also had pizza (just one to share ;)) on the Saturday we had a nice cooked breakfast at a greasy spoon and it was VERY nice. we left my uncles and headed off on an adventure, we had snacks throughout the day and went on a London open top bus tour which was great fun. We left the tour and had a wander up to see the Queen (she wasn’t home) then a stroll through St James’s Park and off to the Thames and we jumped on a boat and arrived at the O2 to see the Muppets Live! again more food, hotdogs and sandwiches late at night. the Sunday I travelled home, I had bacon rolls, and more sandwiches and chocolate and generally things that are bad…

It didn’t stop there…

Over the next couple days I had friends over so we went up to the Mumbles where we enjoyed seaside treats including Ice Cream (dairy free for me)
It’s not exactly improved from there either, I had 2 slices of Chocolate Cake on my birthday and a big Calvary meal a week later. I feel like I’ve done nothing but eat, sleep and go to work since!

So I haven’t weighed in since I got back when I found out I stormed passed 24st! so… tomorrow is a weigh in day.

One of my best friends has joined me on my WW Journey and honestly, she is smashing it and really inspiring me to pull on my big girl pants and move forward…

I have a few points to play with daily…
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So I am cooking from scratch with a couple WW ready meals in the freezer for back up.

I will be posting over the next couple days a food special, some ideas and recipes with different values and some ideas for a quick bite.

Til then….

July and Hello Summer

Hello Summer,
At least there is one thing as of late the weather has been beautiful!

Getting back into the habit of going to the gym, as and when I can.

I have stopped my meetings at WW (in an attempt to save some monies) but I am continuing online only. This means my scales have changed back to the ones I had at home and as I put on weight…

I am 317lbs! that is 22st 9lbs…
Slowly going back up to where I started in Feb last year and I really don’t have an excuse for it. Depression and crap and just generally not looking after myself.

I’ve emptied my wardrobe of everything that doesn’t fit me, too big and it’s off to the charity shop, too small and it’s gone into a bag under my bed, out of sight, out of mind. (or so they say) the idea is if the there is next to nothing in my wardrobe and I cannot afford to buy new clothes then I need to look after myself.
And by that I also mean make myself accountable for everything that I do.

I will now be updating this site at least twice a week as I need to keep on top of things which means saying no when the girls at work suggest a McDonald’s Breakfast Wrap in the mornings (omg they taste so good!!!) No more trips to McDonald’s around the corner from house either…

Time to make myself accountable!

Summer didn’t last long….

Hey you lovely blog followers,
For those of you in the UK, you’ll agree the weather this week has been CRAZY! so hot and I was stuck in work for all of it (OMG… TOO HOT) we’re not used to heat like that here but it seems to have come to an end, just about.

I have a few things to update you with,

I haven’t been back to a meeting as I just don’t have the time to go, So i think i’m going to go back to online only WW ( it is cheaper after all)

secondly I’ve organised a night of dinner and drinks with a couple of my best friends from work, I’ve bought a new dress, in a size smaller than I was and it’s a tight fit dress, like on purpose… I doubt I will look as good as the model I saw it on but I’m happy with it ๐Ÿ™‚

lastly… I went shopping the other day and I saw something pretty that I really wanted but don’t do in my size (well that i’m used to) but determination face on..
I bought it in the largest size they do and with an aim to fit in it AND feel confident in it…
Drum Roll……
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*GULP*

Fingers crossed this plan goes well.

SO far so good…

Will update again soon ๐Ÿ™‚

But it was my ‘Day Off’

A day off work does not mean a day off weight loss…

This became very apparent to me this week, just look at my daily step totals from Monday to Saturday….
I worked Monday, Wednesday – Friday; When I work I walk to my local train station, which is slightly longer route at the moment due to road works (yay :/) I then walk from the train station in the town where I work to the building I work in, I spend a lot of my day walking from one side of the office to the other or on occasion climbing the stairs to get to the next floor cause the lift takes to long (wait! picking walking upstairs over getting the lift? am i nuts??) then I do the reverse walk home.


Then Saturday, Which was my day off, I went to Swansea Comic con, Which was a little further out of town than I thought it would be, Then as I walked into town there was an awesome band playing in the square, so I sat and listened to them for a little while, before popping into work, seeing some work friends who were stuck there for the day and then took the trip back home, I cannot believe that when I got home I had walked 17k steps, I was truly amazed.

So I have decided on my days off I need to get up off my bum and do more, doing more can be fun ๐Ÿ™‚

Also In 2 weeks I lost a total of 10lbs, It slowed down in the second week but I’m still pretty chuffed with that, I just cannot wait to find out what that means in terms of the scales in WW meeting but we shall soon see.

I’ve taken the decision also to move off No Count and to go back onto counting, The reason for this is because I am quite fussy with food and the things I like on the no count which are ideal for me to take to work ends up being the same thing everyday and I like variety, so I think I would rather count and mix it up a bit, don’t want to be living off chicken and couscous forever (even if it does taste lush)

I think that sums up the update, but overall I’m pretty happy with how things are going, just got to remember slow and steady wins the race.

Health and Wellbeing… What Happened??

This post is a hard one to write.

I have been in such an awful place since September. Having a seizure and ending up in hospital and temporarily losing my ability to speak has really affected me.

I have suffered with depression for some time, About 14 years or so. But these last 6 months have been awful. I hate who I am and what happens to me, The more stressed or upset I get the more my brain seems to shut down on me and it’s the scariest thing I have ever been through. A Neurologist believes I am now suffering with Migraines as a result of the seizure and I’m finally now on Beta Blockers. I had a Blood Test in January, the message I got back said that the test was ‘fine’ but Thursday on my way to work I collapsed. I went dizzy and I was gone. The first time this has happened, I was on my own and I was scared. so No work and off to the Doctor’s. The Doctor informed me my Folic Acid levels are low which he established from the test in January.

The main reason for everything I have been doing this last year is not to be skinny but to be healthy and I feel like my body and my mind is giving up on me. I’m scared and Don’t know what to do. I’m trying to eat right but I’ve taken a step back from the gym as I’m so scared to be there and for something to happen and I get hurt or worse hurt someone else.

Part of me thinks that the Doctor’s aren’t taking me seriously but I can only go by their professional opinions on what is wrong with me. Everything is linked to the seizure and I’ve always been good with words and thoughts and now I’m ย not… I’m not me.

All I want to do is cry and no one knows…
How can I tell people that I want to cry because my mind feels broken? There are people going through worse, this could be temporary…. but it might not be.

What can I do??

This is not an April Fool…

So here I am updating my blog for the first time in over 2 months (as it was pointed out to me… sorry ๐Ÿ˜ฆ )

So what’s been happening? I’ve been working long days and experiencing some issues that I believed were resulted in my hospital stay in September.

I’ve been going to WW meetings, actually being weighed by other people is scary, but I’m going, and still going, I had a few slip ups and I think that was stress, so in all I’ve lost 3lbs in the last 6 weeks, ย I know it isn’t much but it’s something.

I saw my neurologist on Wednesday who thinks I’m suffering migraines which is causing all the issues i’m having so, i’m being put on medication for that. I’m so relieved. I can finally put my mind at rest.

So… This is just a quick update to say I am still here and still working on things.

And to celebrate spring… “Bikini body here I come” hahaha

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